Tally shakes her head, ashamed. "No. I was too scared. She left me coded directions in case I wanted to go, but I knew I wouldn't use them. I wanted to be pretty. But on my sixteenth birthday, they took me to Special Circumstances headquarters instead of the hospital to get my surge. Dr. Cable--she's the leader of the Specials--told me I had to go after Shay and find the Smoke or they wouldn't make me pretty. I had to betray Shay. And after a couple days I agreed to do it." Tally sighs. "I know it must seem utterly pathetic that that worked on me, when you were willing to die for Harrow, but..." All her excuses feel weak and pathetic.